howdy from minnesota!

well, i originally tried to post this this morning, while i had a forever layover in minneapolis, but the terminals weren't very blog friendly :P
however, as a few more things developed this afternoon, i'm able to present a more informative plea tonight.
first, the reader's digest version of why i'm here, and why god's once again got something up his sleeve.
originally, my entire family was to journey up here to my mom's this week to celebrate my grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary (they reside in texas still). almost two weeks ago we learned my grandmother was having some difficulties with her back and leg again and wouldn't be able to make the trip up here.
sis and i still decided to come up and spend time with mom, since we hadn't seen her since the fall.
while sis was here last week, mom woke up one morning and could barely move (she has a medical history a mile long, including rheumatoid arthritis). but this time was worse than a normal visit from ol' arthur.
after a few dr visits and a trip to the er, we learned she has a bulging disc between her L5 and S1 vertebrae (right about hip level), which resulted in no reflexes or sensations in her right leg. not a good thing. especially for a diabetic.
so this afternoon, after they picked me up, we went to a specialist in north dakota (about 90 mins away) and he strongly recommended an immediate surgery.
she's slated to go in Friday morning to have it taken care of.
sis had to return to pa this week due to work, but her oldest daughter is still out here.
my dad was supposed to take her home mid august, but that might change depending on how the surgery goes. likewise, i was supposed to fly back home next monday, but might be staying longer to help mom in recovery.

those of you who know me best know i love my momma dearly (lol yes, she'll always be momma to me). and it pains me to see her struggling so much physically at only 46. i'll be honest with you....this is one issue i've had difficulties trusting god with in the past. it's easy for me to believe anyone else can be healed....yet i see what momma's endured and sometimes my feelings override my faith. i know god is no respector of persons, and i know that christ took those stripes so that even my family could be healed. but i struggle with pulling that head knowledge to my heart and applying my faith when i need it the most.

so i ask of my loved ones back home to please keep our family in your prayers. pray for momma, her healing. wisdom for the doctors who will be caring for her this week. pray for peace for my step dad during this ordeal. and patience for him to be able to attend to family affairs.
pray for wisdom in planning, especially where plans for my niece and i to return home are involved. pray for strength for all of us....that we'd step up to the plate and walk in faith as we never have before. that we'd be content trusting in our creator, the lover of our soul. even when the horizon is uncertain.

thank you, my aweesome blessings. i love you and appreciate you more than you'll ever know.
and yes, i'll keep you posted as i know what develops.

~Q