Random Thoughts

Thursday, July 28, 2005


It's funny how animals sense and know the presence of Daddy. My cousins dog "Apache" collapsed today and we took him to the e.r. He couldn't walk and of course he knew he was in pain and so did we. My cousin said" how am I gonna get him in the car?" He knew he had to get himself up and get in that car. And he did. Now let's look at this. 1 he couldn't walk. But he found the strength to do so to get himself in the car. 2 He usually wants nothing to do with the car and yet he ran to get in there. If only I could get my arse in gear and do the things I know I need to do because no one else is gonna be able to help me but Daddy. Apache had no idea where he was going or what was gonna happen. He only knew he was gettin help and gettin in that car was darn important. If only I trusted so blindly that Daddy is there waitin...To help me....

He apparently tore ligaments in his knees. He is an older dog, black lab. They gave him shots and medicine, and he has to take glucosamine.

listen to hear if you have anything you need to say.... Thought for the day...

A few things discovered

I realized a couple things since last Friday night. One that it was not me who decided to step on the break to stop my car from being hit. I don't think I made that clear in the previous blog. But the more I thought about it and talked about it is worth saying thank you Daddy for you and my angels. Second when I was at H2O Thursday night I didn't need to use my earplugs. I usually use them in most worship services because my ears, up to this point have been really sensitive. I also realized the very same thing when I was in church on Sunday and I always have used them there. So another healing! Thank you Daddy....

Even though it may seem that things are going wrong or backwards or are spiraling down and we feel we are not in control, we have got to find the faith and peace to believe Daddy is there doing something for us....

howdy from minnesota!

well, i originally tried to post this this morning, while i had a forever layover in minneapolis, but the terminals weren't very blog friendly :P
however, as a few more things developed this afternoon, i'm able to present a more informative plea tonight.
first, the reader's digest version of why i'm here, and why god's once again got something up his sleeve.
originally, my entire family was to journey up here to my mom's this week to celebrate my grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary (they reside in texas still). almost two weeks ago we learned my grandmother was having some difficulties with her back and leg again and wouldn't be able to make the trip up here.
sis and i still decided to come up and spend time with mom, since we hadn't seen her since the fall.
while sis was here last week, mom woke up one morning and could barely move (she has a medical history a mile long, including rheumatoid arthritis). but this time was worse than a normal visit from ol' arthur.
after a few dr visits and a trip to the er, we learned she has a bulging disc between her L5 and S1 vertebrae (right about hip level), which resulted in no reflexes or sensations in her right leg. not a good thing. especially for a diabetic.
so this afternoon, after they picked me up, we went to a specialist in north dakota (about 90 mins away) and he strongly recommended an immediate surgery.
she's slated to go in Friday morning to have it taken care of.
sis had to return to pa this week due to work, but her oldest daughter is still out here.
my dad was supposed to take her home mid august, but that might change depending on how the surgery goes. likewise, i was supposed to fly back home next monday, but might be staying longer to help mom in recovery.

those of you who know me best know i love my momma dearly (lol yes, she'll always be momma to me). and it pains me to see her struggling so much physically at only 46. i'll be honest with you....this is one issue i've had difficulties trusting god with in the past. it's easy for me to believe anyone else can be healed....yet i see what momma's endured and sometimes my feelings override my faith. i know god is no respector of persons, and i know that christ took those stripes so that even my family could be healed. but i struggle with pulling that head knowledge to my heart and applying my faith when i need it the most.

so i ask of my loved ones back home to please keep our family in your prayers. pray for momma, her healing. wisdom for the doctors who will be caring for her this week. pray for peace for my step dad during this ordeal. and patience for him to be able to attend to family affairs.
pray for wisdom in planning, especially where plans for my niece and i to return home are involved. pray for strength for all of us....that we'd step up to the plate and walk in faith as we never have before. that we'd be content trusting in our creator, the lover of our soul. even when the horizon is uncertain.

thank you, my aweesome blessings. i love you and appreciate you more than you'll ever know.
and yes, i'll keep you posted as i know what develops.

~Q